May
May you attract a divine partner who loves every cell of you. The warrior, the gentle, the loving, the sexy, the comfy, the quiet, the talkative, the vulnerable, the bold, the sensitive, the nurturing and the powerful - the absolute whole, wonderful being you are.
My heart aches as I begin to truly sense
that she may be drifting away from me.
Even the thought of it forms a lump in my throat,
tightens my chest,
and spills tears down my cheeks.
Oh, the memories—so tender, so vivid.
And the promises, still glowing with beauty...
yet now, they feel like distant stars—visible, but unreachable.
This morning, lying still, I whispered a quiet prayer to the Universe.
When I was younger, I prayed to get things—
"A, B, C... please, just this one thing, God."
I’d kneel and plead, eyes closed tight.
But today, I lay fully present.
My energy feels radiant—
both painfully bright and exquisitely alive.
And so I pray, not to get something,
but to feel everything.
To taste the full depth of being human.
Dear Universe,
Do whatever is needed to help my soul grow.
Break me open, if you must.
Heal me gently, if you can.
I surrender.
Let Your will unfold.
And may I stay wide awake through it all.
Then I smile.
Here we go, Ivana—
arms wide open, heart unguarded.
Like Troy on the rollercoaster,
hands in the air, savor the butterfly.
Enjoy the ride,
my brave little spark of human consciousness.